Bad At Being Sick

April 11, 2015 ~ Sue ~ Leave a comment

There are things that have changed as I have got older. I try to save money every time I get paid. I always try to better myself. And I am comfortable about who I am as a person. Despite this, I still act like a wee girl when I get ill.

I am writing this from my bed, where my body seems to be trying to make me cough up a lung. It has been for the last few weeks. I am just feeling a bit sorry for myself. It’s one of those things where no matter how much medicine I get, the cough doesn’t seem to be going anywhere. And it’s one of those things where there is a constant irritation that won’t seem to go away. My breath catches in my irritated throat and I get into a coughing fit.

Its one of those things that happens every now and then. I guess the weekend ahead is going to be a quiet one. I’ll try and catch up on sleep, and find something to calm down this tickle throat. This is not how I expected my weekends to be when I was younger *sigh*

Working Life

April 10, 2015 ~ Sue ~ Leave a comment

I always remember being told when I was younger that it was ‘better to work to live, rather than live to work’. As if to say that a job isn’t the ‘be all and end all’. And that working is just one small part of our lives.

But in reality, I have never found it so straight forward.

That job which takes up a ‘small part of our lives’ actually takes up a lot of hour time. In fact other than sleeping, I would say that work is what people spend most of their time doing. But that job is only there so that we can afford the life we want. Because you spend so much time at work, it is essential that you should find joy from it, or at least part of it. Whether it’s the actual job you do or the people you work with that makes you get up in the morning, it’s important that there is something. It helps work become more bearable.

Everyone has had that one job they hated. Where there was no joy, and work seemed to be all that you could focus on. Sometimes it happens, whether it a crappy medial job, or your dream job. Where work becomes stressful and your focus seems to be on what is making you stressed. And that makes things seem so much work. It’s times like this, that you need a bit of scope. You need to take a step back, and realise that work isn’t everything. Your life is not just work. And if it is, maybe you need to invest some time in you. Go out for a movie, or have a pamper session. Make you feel special.

For a long time, in a previous job, all I worried about was my work. It wasn’t that my job was hard, I just got real anxiety about it. And it brought me so far down, and at that point it seemed everything in my life was about work. I couldn’t switch off at the end of the day, and that made me so stressed. I work somewhere else now, and my attitude is so different. I work there, so that I can go out with friends and buy what I want. I finish work for the weekend, and I can just relax for a few days. And I am so much more relaxed and happy.

Whether you love or hate your job, you have to be able to ‘switch off’ when you aren’t working. If you can’t relax a little, work could become a bigger issue than it really is. The most important thing to remember is to look after you. Make sure you see the benifits of all your hard work. Because you deserve it.

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**Sorry this is a ramble, again. I am still not 100%. I haven’t been sleeping and have an awful cough. Here’s hoping it goes away soon**

Get To Know Me (BEDA)

April 9, 2015 ~ Sue ~ Leave a comment

**I have been getting no sleep recently, so thought I’d post a wee questionnaire as my brain isn’t functioning enough to write anything proper**

1- What does the last text you sent say? And to whom? Was to my friend, Gemma, letting her know I was off the bus and heading round to hers.

2- What does the last text you recieved say? And from whom? From EE, telling me my phone bill was ready to view.

3- What time do you wake up most mornings? 6am, I start work at 8. If I am off work I usually wake up before 9am.

4- Are you afraid of walking alone at night? No. Never have had any fear of going anywhere on my one.

5- What do you do to relax at the end of a stressful day? If it has been a really bad day, I love to have a bath.

6- Where did your last kiss take place and with whom? 😶

7- Do/did you get into trouble a lot at school? Nope. I was really quiet at school, kept myself to myself.

8- Do you enjoy your job? If unemployed, are you content being so? I work at a warehouse, it’s not the best job. But there is great people there and I get a lot of time to think.

9- Do you often pick up on double entendres and innuendos? Sometimes. I am not too ‘quick on the draw’ so I’ll normally pick up once someone else laughs.

10- Have you ever met someone who has completely altered your way of thinking? Not really. I have read stories of others which has caused me to re-evaluated my own life. Particularly when learning about those lives so different from my own.

11- What is something you have given a lot of thought to lately? The natural world. It makes me feel so insignificant, and I find that super comforting.

12- Do you usually initiate hugs? No! I feel super awkward, and don’t like imposing myself into someone else’s personal space.

13- What are you looking forward to? I am going on holiday to Portugal in October to watch Scotland play international football. So excited.

14- Do you have any tattoos. Do you want any/more? I have 7 tattoos, and have been craving a new one for a while. But I need to decide on a design first.

15- Are you mentally strong? Kind of. I struggle with both depression and social anxiety, and I can struggle when things get stressful. But, I don’t give up. I have always worked hard, and haven’t been taken time away from work with mental health days. Although sometimes I have needed it.

16- Are you physically strong? Nope.

17- Do you think you’re a good person? I always like to think I will always try to do good things.

18- Name one thing you wish you could change about your life right now. I always wish I had stuck in at school more, and followed my gut more. I became very apathetic with education, despite carrying on with it. I wish I had left it, and just worked hard. I just needed to believe that there is always time to go back to education later.

Current Favourites- (BEDA)

April 8, 2015 ~ Sue ~ Leave a comment

I am feeling a bit under the weather, so thought I’d post 5 of my current favourite things. Thinking of things I like, usually helps make me feel better.

1) Grey’s Anatomy. When this show started, I did watch it and enjoyed it. I recently started paying for NOWtv and the whole series was available. So I have been watching it A LOT. It’s really easy to watch, and can be funny. Really wish I had continued watching it before.

2) Youtube. I watch a lot of Vloggers very regular. And over the years I have built up a playlist of favourite videos. They tend to be retro gaming stuff, songs and general things that makes me laugh. Watching this playlist always makes me feel better.

3) Going for walks. It has been really lovely weather here reccently, perfect for going out for walks. I live near the sea, and love the sound and smell of salty sea air. It also helps me clear my mind.

4)Putting iPod on shuffle. I like to listen to a range of music, from Metal to Garage, I like everything. So sometimes the range of different bands that are played makes me feel free. I can get lost in the music, and all that matters is what comes through the headphones.

5)Library books. I am a bit of a romantic when it comes to books. When people read books, their brain creates this fantasy world, where the words on the page appear like a movie. With a library book, so many people have went into this fantasy world before you, and they may have seen it so different to you. And I really like that the same words could mean different things to different people. I thinks it’s kind of beautiful.

Change of the Seasons (BEDA)

April 7, 2015 ~ Sue ~ Leave a comment

Its the time of the year when the days are getting longer and its becoming a little warmer. I love the spring. I love the fact I can go out for more walks and can see everything growing again after the cold winter.

I am trying to get more healthy and I have been walking a lot more over the last few weeks. It’s a great way to de-stress, and the longer days with better weather gives me the chance to do it. The lighter days also can effect people’s mood. There has been evidence that the volume of sunlight a person sees in a day helps their mood. And with the sun making an appearance this past weekend, I can see how that is true.

I am back at work tomorrow, but am so happy and bouncy. I am ready for the warmer weather and the challenges that lie ahead. And hopefully, like the rest of the natural world, I can grow from it.

Fighting Sleep (BEDA)

April 6, 2015 ~ Sue ~ Leave a comment

I never seem to sleep enough hours. It’s recommended that you need 7-9 hours sleep every night, but I get nowhere near that amount. It’s not that I am awake at all hours, it’s that i am restless. I don’t get a good sleep.

I recently recieved a Fitbit Charge for my birthday, and it records your sleep patterns.

I am finding that I can be a bit low on energy for the whole day. So I am trying to eat healthier and do more exercise. Hopefully I’ll sleep a bit better, and I can now monitor it. I don’t know if it will work, but it is worth a try.

I do wonder, does getting fitness involved gadgetry actually help people get fit? Only one way to find out, I guess.

Harder Than I Thought (BEDA)

April 5, 2015 ~ Sue ~ Leave a comment

Blogging itself is something that I find quite natural. Typing out my thoughts and feelings is something that I find quite simple. My problem can sometimes be when I get a bit of writer’s block, and I struggle to find anything to say. And when that happens, it can be hard to get back into the rhythm of creating regularly.

That is where BEDA can be a challenge. Keeping myself motivated can be hard, particularly being motivated enough to post every day. I have found it hard this weekend because it has been my birthday weekend, and I have been super busy. You will notice, that I have kind of ‘copped out’ and posted some pictures, because it saved time. But looking at it now, I think that the photos help break the monotony from the written posts. Although I may not have the time, I like that I am still motivated enough to post something. Which is great.

Is there anyone else out there blogging every day this month? How are you finding the challenge of updating every day?

Out and About (BEDA)

April 4, 2015 ~ Sue ~ Leave a comment

Today was a lovely day, so I thought I’d head out for a walk. Heading along the Fife Coastal path and got a little snap happy. Featured is an old shooting point from World War 2 and the new Queensferry Crossing being build across the Forth Estuary. I love the sea air, and have grown up around this area. When you see the gorgeous scenery, I can’t understand how people can say they hate living in Fife.

I Can Adult. Honest. (BEDA)

April 3, 2015 ~ Sue ~ Leave a comment

Another birthday.

Another year older.

And still I get over excited about TV shows, books and bands that I love. I still watch cartoons and make up cartoon characters. It sometimes feels like my body may get older, my brain refuses to.

And i don’t think that is as bad a thing as it may seem. One of the worst things about growing up, is that people around you seem bored with life. The sense of fun they had as a child, to make everything a game. Where cracks seemed to be papered over so easily, and any issues were forgotten within a few days.

So maybe being a childish adult isn’t too bad?

Nice

April 2, 2015 ~ Sue ~ Leave a comment

Sometimes a pictures makes me feel warm. And for me it’s the one below, at the moment. I love that the warm sun is coming up as I am on my way to work. Makes me all ready for the day ahead.

Do you have a picture which makes you feel happy at the moment?