Question: Why do I blog?

This is a question I get asked a lot, so I thought I would answer it today.

I started a personal blog, almost 6 years ago, on livejournal. I was 20, and I think it was when I started struggling with depression. I was at uni, training to be a Veterinary Nurse, but I struggled with the pressure. I was away from my folks, and was also being to struggle with handling myself in situations. I was always very critical of myself, and it became worse. But the job, of being with animals, helped. I loved that I was helping another creature, and it made me feel better about myself. I failed my exams and it was so expensive, that I couldn’t afford to do it.

It was hard. I mean working with animals was all I wanted to do as a kid. So I started working in a local bakery, so that I had some money coming in. Which was hard, because my head was all over the place. But I used to blog, and at that time, there wasn’t really any professional blogs, from what I was aware. So it wasn’t trying to be famous, it was letting go of all my emotion, and at the time, it was semi-private. Also, rather than feeling like I am pushing things on my friends, I can get it all out of my system, without feeling like I am forcing someone to listen. I feel guilty for forcing my problems on others.

The only people who would read your blog, would be people who use the site, and used it for similar reasons. So nobody would judge you for what you wrote. Now, I think that people start blogs just to get fans. I still have my Livejournal blog, which is still updated regularly, then I have this blog, which although the content is slightly less whiney, than my LJ, it is still me expressing myself.

And, ultimately, that’s what a blog should always be. It should be expressing yourself, writing about thoughts and feelings. I write my blogs, because it is a big release. When I am writing a blog, I am so focused on the task in hand, and sometimes blogging is the only thing that holds my attention. I love it though, blogging has become a major part of what I do online.

Its nice. You visit my Facebook, you can find out the basics about me, but visit one of my blogs, you get to actually know me.

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