What if, is not a question really. It is a feeling of self-doubt where a person analyses what could have been. It can almost seem like a person is doubting the decisions that they have made, and they current position where they are now.

It’s a natural thing that people feel. Particularly when we find ourselves approaching the end of another year. It is a normal time to evaluate how the last year had gone, and whether we believe things would be different if we had made different choices. This isn’t very productive. It makes a person regret where they are, and forces them to wallow in any failures.

I am a firm believer that someone should take responsibility on what choices they have made. Maybe you did make a bad decision, then you will learn from it. Wasting your energy on wishing it didn’t happen is useless. You can’t undo anything already done. A person should recognise what’s happened, and look at why it why not to do it again.

Learning. That is what is important in life. Not wishing things happened differently. People need to realise that EVERYONE makes mistakes and wrong choices, it’s what you do as a result of those mistakes, that is important. Education is often thought as something that begins and ends with schooling. That is not true. People are constantly taking in information and they learn from it.

So if you make a mistake, don’t panic. Just think about why things happened and work out how not to do it again. Learn, rather than wish for what never happened.

Question: Why do I blog?

This is a question I get asked a lot, so I thought I would answer it today.

I started a personal blog, almost 6 years ago, on livejournal. I was 20, and I think it was when I started struggling with depression. I was at uni, training to be a Veterinary Nurse, but I struggled with the pressure. I was away from my folks, and was also being to struggle with handling myself in situations. I was always very critical of myself, and it became worse. But the job, of being with animals, helped. I loved that I was helping another creature, and it made me feel better about myself. I failed my exams and it was so expensive, that I couldn’t afford to do it.

It was hard. I mean working with animals was all I wanted to do as a kid. So I started working in a local bakery, so that I had some money coming in. Which was hard, because my head was all over the place. But I used to blog, and at that time, there wasn’t really any professional blogs, from what I was aware. So it wasn’t trying to be famous, it was letting go of all my emotion, and at the time, it was semi-private. Also, rather than feeling like I am pushing things on my friends, I can get it all out of my system, without feeling like I am forcing someone to listen. I feel guilty for forcing my problems on others.

The only people who would read your blog, would be people who use the site, and used it for similar reasons. So nobody would judge you for what you wrote. Now, I think that people start blogs just to get fans. I still have my Livejournal blog, which is still updated regularly, then I have this blog, which although the content is slightly less whiney, than my LJ, it is still me expressing myself.

And, ultimately, that’s what a blog should always be. It should be expressing yourself, writing about thoughts and feelings. I write my blogs, because it is a big release. When I am writing a blog, I am so focused on the task in hand, and sometimes blogging is the only thing that holds my attention. I love it though, blogging has become a major part of what I do online.

Its nice. You visit my Facebook, you can find out the basics about me, but visit one of my blogs, you get to actually know me.