I Can Fix Things

Except I can’t really fix things.
Am I the only person who tries to stupid little pointless actions, to try and ‘fix’ a problem?
It’s like if there is interference on the TV channel that I am watching, I will just channel surf to see that other channels have the problem, untill the problem disappears. And, although my actions did nothing to fix the problem, I act as if it did. And I get this idea in my head, that I am a bit like a superhero with all my problem-fixing skills.
Of course, I am not a hero of any sort, and it is just pure luck that the problem fixes itself. It has nothing to do with me, what-so-ever.


Vlog on the subject.

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Today is the day where I apparently break everything I touch.

Okay, slight exaggeration, but it feels like I have broken a lot. Really, I have broken two things. But both were important to me and what I do daily. *sigh*

First, I stood on my stereo headphones, breaking them in two. I can hear you all now. ‘Well, clean up after yourself.’ That helps NOONE! Especially not me, who can’t seem to find any superglue *scratches head*

And then, I tried to set up my camera to film, and I got my good ol’ tripod out, and the top has snapped off it. It’s the bit that the camera attaches to. So I have a desktop tripod with ‘bendy legs’, so spent ages attaching the small one to the big one, so I could then attach my camera. Seriously, looked really stupid. But it worked. *thumbs up*

Yeah…the excitement of my life right now. *sigh*

Hey Monday

So this is a busy start to the week.
I have surrounded myself in projects to do, probably as some sort of distraction. But I am so busy.

But the one thing that I am genuinely excited about, is learning different effects for Windows Media Maker. Until I get a better video editor, I have decided to make the best of the situation, and try to learn some skills. Skills to make my videos a little bit better.

I can hear it now ‘why spend all your time doing something you don’t get paid for’. Yeah, thanks for the everlasting support, bro. *thumbs up* It is something called a hobby, and it is something that I actually enjoy doing. Sure, most people I know in real life, think I am a weirdo and don’t understand why I do it. It’s probably the same reason why I blog, it is something I view as a fun way of expressing myself. And the Youtube community is a tight band of friends, and I like that. I tend to loiter on websites where there is a real sense of friendship.

*Thinks* I have to go, the washing machines sounds like it wants to explode.
Enjoy your day. xx

Facebook Status Update?

I’m gonna put my hand on my heart and be honest. Facebook bores me.

You go on and get bombarded with ‘Bob likes ‘drinking till you fall over’ and other pieces of information which do not impact anything and never will.

And that is how facebook is generally. People post status updates, that end up being taken as gospel. So bitchy comments about work, could end up as disciplinary matters. Sending messages to a member of the opposite sex, could break up a relationship.

I have used various social networking sites, to vent my anger and frustrations about life in general. But as a long standing internet addict, I feel that luxury is being taken away from me. If I bitch about my work, I am letting off steam, and that’s it.

Facebook has come on the social networking landscape like a big cancerous sore. It takes what people love about social networking and has turned it into a monster. -.-

I say all this, then realise, many people will read this post from when it autoposts on Facebook. I am a big contradiction, but noone should be surprised at that revelation.

Have a good Saturday, homies. \o/

Friday Feeling?

My Friday feeling, right now, is sick.

Lovely. Just what I needed when I remember I booked an overtime shift starting at 8.30 am. -.- This is good, because it gives me more money. But it sucks, because I am no longer used to getting up early. This meant I woke up with about 20 minutes to wake up and be at the bus stop. This was not perfect by any means, and it took me till about 11am till I was properly awake.

Yes, talking about billing is bad enough when one’s brain is 100% in gear, without me making things worse. But hey, I seem to always be dedicated to making things suck and be irritating. But hey, what would I moan about if life was perfect?

Other than overworking, something which is about as welcome in my life as a weight watchers representative, I am glad to inform that life has been pretty boring. But when is it not? If life was all go-go-go, I’d probably die of a heart attack due to pure exhaustion.

I did this whole creative thing last night, and made a late-night vlog. Oi! Not that kind of vlog. What kind of person are you? Filth! I did a video which was to help friends with recommendations of sites for their uses. Unfortunately, it did not render well, or record well. In fact, the whole thing was a disaster. To the point that I am going to get home and delete it as soon as I can. Unless youtube did something to it overnight.

Sorry for the pointless moaning. But that’s why I have this. So I can say what’s on my mind. 🙂

Enjoy your Friday!

Holy Moley?!?

Trying to cut down on swearing. *nods* For no real reason, just felt like I should be acting a little bit more respectable. I’m not a child anymore, curse words shouldn’t be all that funny anymore.

Accept I find them hilarious and fart jokes hit my funny bone spot on. So I am never going to be as mature as I pretend I want to be. To be brutally honest, I don’t particularly want to to stop acting like a child. I mean, the few things I do, which are all about living as an adult (working, paying bills, actually dealing with things) are pretty over-rated. So I am quite content living in my bubble of perpentual adolescence.

But seeing as cursing is something that I do a lot, I figured ‘it’s just a few words’ so I decided to try and stop swearing. *shrugs* Can’t be that hard right? So far I have failed miserably, and am still cursing and everything. But part of me is thinking, why should I stop swearing. They are just words after all. It’s not the actual words that are offensive, it’s the thought processes people have connected to them.

And to be honest, right now, it seems like it would a lot easier to change the thought processes of the whole world, compared to not dropping the F-bomb.

Yeah. Fudge. It’s nice, you should go get some. 😉

Picking Up Speaking Habits

So where do you get the small characteristics in your speech from?

Don’t be confused, I don’t actually mean behaviour traits. Because they tend to take years and years to develop. I am talking about little words and phrases you pick up from people you talk to  or from people you watch .

What made me think of this? Well,  I have been watching Nat’s Community Channel videos on You Tube, and I have noticed she says ‘bro’ a lot. I then noticed me using it in conversation. And, I’m no Australian funny girl, so when I said it, I was met with that kind of uncomfortable silence where you start looking for the tumble weed.*sigh*

So some words don’t exactly suit every person, nor every situation. But hey, if you try out a ‘new word’ don’t be disappointed if you get a few laughs because of it, because there is usually at least one reason people in Scotland shouldn’t say ‘Bro’, especially when talking to a girl. :S But it is always interesting, because sometimes words to catch on. For instance ‘awesomesauce’, I heard from Canadian youtuber WaffleJon. And, it has been used by other youtubers, and now is used widely by people all over the place. And awesomesauce never gets so much as a chortle. Probably because it is AWESOME!!

So yeah, I am guilty of stealing words and phrases from other people. *nods* And I’m pretty sure it comes from something in childhood, where all kids would play the same game to fit in. So if someone you fancied at school said something cool, you would start saying the phrase, in a bit to fool yourself into thinking that you were close to said crush.

What? That was just me? Dunno what you’re talking about, because I have never done that. *cough*

I guess it is just how people are, they do pick up little things form those around them. And because speech is the most common way of communicating, it’s no surprise we adapt what we say. Pretty cool, when you think about it.

Want to know if anyone reading this, has any words they seem to have started saying as a direct influence from someone else. So let me know, bro.

Na, that is never gonna seem cool no matter how many times I say it.

Moneh!!

So I am trying to be conservative with ma cash. And whilst I don’t see it lasting very long, I decided to make a video about it all.

What’s that? Two video’s in two days. BOOYAH SON! Yeah, probably won’t last very long, because I don’t film if I am not in the mood, if ya catch me. So here’s hoping I do spend sensibly so I can treat myself at the end of the month. *crosses fingers*

Start Again.

So, it’s the start of yet another week, and almost on to the third month of the year. :S Does anyone know how I can slow time down a little, it seems to be going way too fast.

I don’t think that it’s helped with the fact, that because with my current financial woes, I have been wishing for payday. Something which is becoming a common occurence, I may add. But, it feels like I am wishing all my time away. It’s a nightmare that I have fallen into that pattern, where I am always looking to something else. It helps me get through my ‘bad days’, but it means that I am wishing my time away, and don’t enjoy life as much as I should.

I don’t know if this is a common thing, but I can’t help but feel like a bit of a waste of space. Mostly because I am not focusing on the here and now, which isn’t really dealing with anything. It’s like, ‘ignore problems and focus on something else’. Yeah it stops you feeling weighed down by stuff, but it doesn’t actually deal with what is causing me to feel so bad in the first place.

And even when I have a good day, I feel like I am walking on eggshells, until I mess up. It’s like I am waiting for something to go wrong. I mean, I do the best I can, but it never feels good enough. So I create these targets I aim for, like going to a gig or something, and I focus on that, and ignore my insecurities. Well, I can’t ignore them completely, as they will always be there, but I can put my worries to the back of mind.

Despite how good this is at the time, I don’t think it is very good in the long-term. *sigh*