Stress Levels Rising

I have said before that if you focus on positive things, then good things come to you.

Sometimes, that doesn’t work. And thing after thing throws itself at you. You try to be positive, but events are anything but that. You get told to toughen up, to be stronger and get on with it. But what if you are too tired to keep fighting against the current?

How does one deal with that? How do you stay strong? I fake a smile and tell people I’ll be okay. When in fact, I am so close to the edge my toes are hanging over into oblivion. It feels so tempting to step into that emptiness and leave all my problems behind.

For now I’ll struggle on. Continue crying myself to sleep. Hope that it gets better, and dedicate myself to my life and who I am. And I hopefully will get some strength to get through this.

‘Just smile to the world, don’t let it see how broken you are. Let it know, it will take the chance to break you completely.’

‘Team’ work

I always thought there was.

I am currently taking part in 3 different projects, where in taking part in a team was essential. Because I have not organised any of these projects, there are obviously people taking part that I don’t know. Something I am fine with. I like getting the opertunity to meet new people, and get to know them. To be honest, it is one of the wonders of the internet. It brings people together.

The issue is, when you get involved in some kind of group project, you have to appreciate other people’s opinions and learn to work together. But there is always something that gets in the way. Usually it involves people trying to force their point of view across. I am a compromising person,  but it gets to the point where rather than the group being a collaboration, someone wants to be boss.

Usually ideas are fine, but it is when these ideas transform into changes. Changes that were never mentioned previously before the project started, but have suddenly became the main agenda, and causes a rift between the team members. People feel a bit taken-aback by how the original plan seems to be changing, that things are being taken over. They feel threatened, because this is no longer a bit of fun. Changes are ‘proposed’ and people feel out of place. Something that has started as a friendly project to bring people together, has become formal. As if it is a competition to push the project quicker than all the team members are ready for.

And if you feel it is like someone is making a change, and rushing ahead, is it right to put your feet down? Surely, that is why things are discussed. So that people can talk about things. And if someone is harsh, and gets a harsh reaction, who is in the wrong? Is anyone? As long as they can understand each others point of view, should there be any animosity? To make a change to original plans, all team members should be agreed on a particular idea.  And if someone percieves your idea as wrong, don’t run off scared when someone does oppose it. It’s give and take.

And that’s off my chest. 🙂 I always seem to encounter the same issues when I work in groups. Maybe I am just not fit for working in a team. -.- Has anyone encountered any issues when working with other people? What would be your advice on dealing with it?


Big wheels keep on rollin’…

Aye, so there’s been no updates, due to crap internet, and crap me, being too busy to 😛

Its approaching 1am and I am doing college work. Shocked? So am I.

But seriously, I am seriously close to just bombing this course because I haven’t been bothered by anything the last few weeks. Which has just lead to me being a very stressed out Sue. *sigh* I do this every year. 😦 I wish I had more brainpower sometimes. It would be handy, for when I decide to go and watch videos rather than do college work. *She says as she blogs away*

I am an obsessive person, so things such as vlogging and blogging got in the way of me doing actual work. *sigh* But, again, I can’t blame anyone but myself. I either work slowly, or I stress myself out to the point, I just stare at the PC, completely devoid of emotion. 😦 It’s no good, like.

Anywho gonna put on SLC Punk, and do work when that is on. I have stuff to print out, and scanning to do. And stress lines to deepen across my forehead.  Wish me luck.