Do you ever feel like you need to get a grip on things? That the life you are leading needs to change? I do.
The issue is finding what it is that will change things. I am a believer that a person makes their own destiny, and that if you want something, only you can make it happen. Which is fine, if you know how to make that happen. Of course, any action that you do could help change the direction of your life. There is a saying that ‘if you can’t find a job doing what you want, create yourself a job’. That is a good sentiment, if you can put the right amount of effort in. But when you work hard on something, it is hard to give up, when you realise things won’t come to you as easily as you hope. I suppose if you manage to be a success and do what you want, then it says a lot about you and your character.
At the moment, I feel like I am at the crossroads where it is hard for me to put in constant effort. Its becoming a year since I left college, and it’s a lot harder than I thought to get money doing what I love. I suppose I am lucky I have a job, so I have a regular wage whilst I struggle finding customers and such.
Its easy when you are in education. You are filled optimism with the ideas that you will get paid for work easily. Except, people want work for free. Which is good initially, as you are getting work. But time goes on, and the same people still want things for free. You, as an artist, lose focus and value of what you are doing, and find it hard to continue making things. Its a cycle.
Only time will tell whether you can be a success or not.