Cure For An Absent Mind

May 19, 2011 ~ Sue ~ Leave a comment

Due to me having the memory function of a 30 year old PC, I have not done half the stuff I have set out to do recently. I am spectacularly rubbish at keeping on top of my lists of things I need to do. Always have been, and I think I always will be.

What I do, is I write a list of things that I should really do, and then I ignore said list, and do something else completely irrelevant. It is almost as if I recognise I need to do something, that’s enough, and I won’t do anything else. I think it is a mixture of pure avoidance, and ‘out of sight, out of mind’. Which is awesome, especially when you are working on a schedule. Or supposed to be working on a schedule.

But once I acknowledge things, I do have the tendency to erase them completely from my mind, and never thing about it again. Or think about it when it is too late, and I have to run around like a nut-case to get it done. Because apparently, that is how I work best. Which is obviously lies, because no-one can work to their full potential, if they are rushed to finish. But ever since High School, I have tried to convince myself that I can leave things to the last moment, and I end up doing things badly. I think it has to do with the idea, that when I was younger, I was a high achiever, and did everything when I was told, I got no real reward for making that effort. So, as I became older, I began to try less, grades slipped, and I got no more or less recognition. And then that, mixed with laziness, left me following the same pattern time after time.

But, I have started to work on focusing on the task in hand, and not stopping till it’s complete. And it is working. I am being a lot more productive, and doing things properly. This doesn’t sound like much of a ‘eureka’ moment, but it is. When you seem to be in the midst of mediocrity, like any other learnt behavioural trait, it takes a lot of time and effort to change things. So rather than putting my list of activities to the side, I am tackling them, and getting things done. And I am finding, that I don’t forget as much as I used to.

Sunday Session

February 27, 2011 ~ Sue ~ Leave a comment

If a session is sitting in complete boredom for a whole day.

I am taking my Sunday to do some housework. Using all my energy I currently have, to do something proactive. Though, I am not quite sure how long it will last. I have been strangely hyper the last few days, and I don’t know why.

But, because it doesn’t happen very often, I feel I should act positive and try and utilise the energy into doing something. Which is good. I need to start turning things into positivity. Something that is easier said than done, sometimes. I think that it is sometimes easier to admit defeat, rather than confront something head-on. I don’t know if easier is the right word. Maybe, it’s more convenient.

But to actually get motivated to do something, is actually changing your mindset. You need to change the way you think and your attitude. And that is quite hard.

Especially when all you want to do is watch My Little Pony. :S

Universally Speaking

February 1, 2011February 11, 2011 ~ Sue ~ Leave a comment

I was sitting thinking, the other day about the blog post I did a few days ago, where I was talking about relationships. And despite me being rather cynical about love, you can’t deny that it is something that bypasses language and other barriers. Gestures of love and kindness are something that is not restricted to the English language. And that, is rather romantic in itself, thinking that love rises above the barriers our modern world has created.

So, even if we go more primal, and think about the concept of finding a mate. This is something which goes beyond humankind, a great variety of creatures mate for life. Wolves, coyotes, beavers, Golden Eagles and Ospreys are just a few creatures which mate for life. This isn’t them living together and playing happy families, a lot of the time it is just that they are programmed to be social with the opposite sex, and assist in the raising of young. It is mechanical, something which is where a persons need to be in a relationship comes from. It’s the biological urge to have a place where you have a family of people around you, as a network of support, because ultimately that is why animals like Wolves live in packs.

The network that people have has changed over the centuries. No longer are people together simply as mates, and build a network around their mate. They have networks of colleagues, of friends, of people other than the traditional parents, and various family members. So, as our world takes more steps away from nature, so do our network of relationships. So rather than the basic, man meets woman, they have sex, have children, that’s their lives, people have jobs, ambitions and are not so focused on finding a partner. Especially when you see that it used to be that girls where paired with a suitor by the time they were 16.

I guess amidst all my rambling, what I am trying to say is that the human race isn’t unique in having urges to show fondness towards others. A lot of our behaviour comes from our past as more basic creatures, it’s just third party causes, such as money and technology, has distorted what should be the most natural thing that a person should experience.

You can’t talk about love, without your mind going to the polar opposite, which is hate. Hate, in most aspects is thought of as ‘revenge’. Why? Well, again it comes down to the basic families and networks that people have created over time, be it religion, work, or anything. If anything threatens our network, people resort to their primal instinct of trying to defend it. Which then brings intolerance, as people get overly sensitive, and well…you get a whole of bother.

But, fights and duels happen all the time in the wild, as creatures try to protect what is theres’. It’s just the ‘more sophisticated’ humans, use guns and destroy everything, to the point it becomes mindless. But it all stems from urges and behaviours that are built-in to our nature, something that makes us no different from any other person, or any other creature on earth.

SUB-mission

January 14, 2011February 11, 2011 ~ Sue ~ Leave a comment

Oh Youtube.

I am addicted. *shakes fists*

I spend way too much online, watching Vlogs of people who actually update regularly. Now whilst this is good, in that it gets me motivated, and gets me wanting to do something, it also makes me feel bad, because I am such a lazy vlogger. I go through little sprints of making videos, where I get all excited. But, most of the time I am way too lazy to try shoot, edit and upload a video, especially when it can take anything up to an hour to upload videos.

I know, I have slow internet, especially during the day. -.-

I am a very creative individual, when my mood lets me, and I openly embrace anything that allows a person to let their creative juices flow. It helps stop a person becoming repressed, they can become more in touch with their feelings, and are less likely to do things such as commit mass murder. So, being creative not just betters your existence it could be saving the lives of others.

Well, it could.

Anyway, I do spend a lot of time watching vlogs and am subscribing to new channels on a daily basis. Whilst this gives me way too much ‘home work’ whenever I am offline for a few days, it is worth it, and I do get to the point when I could spend a few hours happily watching Vlogs. There is something embedded into my brain somewhere, where I like to show my opinion (which you will know if you have read this blog before). And it therefore involves me listening to other peoples’ opinions and thoughts, because that is the only way you can express opinion, is knowing how other people may think.

Sometimes I wish I had went to University to major in human behaviour, because it is something that interests me so much. I mean, you can tell a lot from a person, just by how well the edit videos and talk to the camera. I am aware that sounds slightly misguided, but I assure you, how you edit a video says a lot about you. I am the kind of person who is terrible at editing, and that is usually because I like to cut it where I feel it seems natural. It just never comes across as natural on screen.