The biggest issue that I have with my own mental health, is the lack of feeling. The numbness that seems to take over everything, that just seems to make everything seem rather pointless. For me, it means that I find it very difficult to find any drive, because there is no reason to do anything. It makes me really down.
It’s why writing, and doing anything creative, is so hard. How can you find something to create, when your mind is stuck looking at a metaphorical grey wall? And, even if I can force something creative, I find that I go round in circles. Saying the same things, drawing over already drawn lines. It’s something that is really hard to get through. When people say that they have a creative block, a lot of the time they say it because they are struggling to create anything at all. For me, especially recently, it’s creating stuff that’s been done before.
People always say that, when life is challenging, you have to power through it, and get out at the other side. But, my problem is, that how do you know when you are at the ‘other side’? It just feels like there is one thing after another, it is never ending. And it’s hard. I think, that when you are younger, your are told that the hard stuff is things like work, and bills. These things are almost abstract when you find yourself struggling with just the physical and mental strain of simply getting out of bed.
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I know exactly what you mean. Some days my eyes open up in the morning and I think, “Why am I going to do this again? Why am I going to do the same thing I’ve done every day for the past 30-some-odd years?”
But then, out of the blue, something great will happen and it reminds me why I get up every morning.
Hang in there, Sue. The things you create are great, and we enjoy them. I may not catch every post, but sometimes, out of the blue, I will see your name pop up, and I read what you wrote, and it reminds me why I keep logging into WP.