Attack! Attack!

Work and life has been a bit rubbish.

And I am feeling rather nervous about posting personal things online because I seem to be getting lampooned a lot for it. The usual Internet troll crap is something I can live with, but now people who I accept as friends and family are hating me for it. They don’t understand why I want to ‘tell all’ and post it online for the world to read.

On one hand the criticism doesn’t mean too much, because these people have not a lot of experience of Internet geekdom past Facebook and YouTube. And as a reaction they attack what it is they don’t know about. It’s a natural response i guess.

But on the hand, I don’t understand it. I have had problems with depression and talking about things online has helped me cope – bit. And the fact that these people are attacking my coping mechanism and they know how hard the last few years have been for me.

I guess it sucks. There seems to a stigma that is becoming attached to publishing things on line generally. Which is strange because blogs about clothing, food and tech seem to be very popular.

The worst thing is that I am cutting back on what I am posting, to try and please those around me. Which is not something I should have to do. *sigh* What a pain!!

Posted via LiveJournal app for iPad.

2 thoughts on “Attack! Attack!

  1. I can totally relate to your situation. I also struggle with depression and anxiety issues and writing has always been my refuge. It also bites me in the butt, at times, because I mistakingly trust people and let them “in” and then get punished for it. I’m getting better and letting the haters’ hate slide off me… eventually… it’s just never easy to ignore the negativity when your inner voice is negative as well.

    Anyway, just dropping by to say hey and let you know you’re not alone.

  2. Thanks for your comment. I think that dealing with negativity, when that is all you feel, is hard. There is no rules on how to behave when it happens, either. I used to get upset all the time, but over the years, I have reached the point where I ignore it mostly.

    I think the fact that its people who I actually know, and who I considered as friends that started being negative. And I’ve lived my life to try and upset as few people as possible, so it sucks.

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