Scribbling

July 28, 2026 ~ Sue ~ 1 Comment

I don’t feel good right now. Like, I am being my own obstacle to my own life. It sounds stupid, because it probably is. My therapist thinks that I may have ADHD, but do you think I can get an assessment? Of course not. Working full time and studying at the same time means that I don’t have it. Silly me. I just think it would help me understand why I struggle so much to simply put one food in front of the other. And why, I’ll go help other people, but not do anything to help myself.

Anyways, in an attempt to get my life on to some kind of track, I have been looking at my hobbies again. I’ve done really well with reading, and have actually read quite a lot this year. Like over 30 books already, which is a vast improvement over the last few years. So, I decided to do some drawing. Art used to be a big part of my life, where I would be drawing all the time. Over the years I kind of lost motivation and inspiration.

I think what happened was that I stopped believing in myself. Which sounds silly when it is just a doodle. But, I felt like everything I had learnt about art in school and in college, had been forgotten. So, I would overthink things and end up not doing anything.

So yesterday, I was feeling crap, but had been seeing a lot of art videos on TikTok, and it made me want to try and draw a random character. 10-15 minutes, just a doodle, but no pressure. But I did do something.

Basic doodle of a cat. Yes… it’s supposed to be a cat.

Whilst it looks like an alien, I still felt good that I did something. I just got lost in what I was doings which felt so good. Like… not feeling stuck in my head. So today, I was looking for ideas… and I found some videos of various people drawing flowers. So I made some flowers up.

I spent a bit longer on this than the cat. Not that you can tell. It looks a bit random, especially the petals. But, it does look like a flower, and it got me getting used to the tools on procreate again. Even if the shading is all over the shot. It’s been the one thing that made me feel better today. Because it really has been a disaster of a day. But it is 11pm, so I survived. Wooooo!!!

Sketchbook

January 26, 2017 ~ Sue ~ Leave a comment

Since I was little I have kept sketch books full of drawings, diary entries and cut-outs. It’s always been a good way to be creative and work out some anxieties that I may have.

The only problem is, that as life gets busier and I get older, it becomes harder to focus on drawing and stuff. For example. My current sketch book was started about 2 and a half years ago. Which is quite bad. Considering there was a time that I could go through a sketch book every few months.

I am trying to say to myself, that it doesn’t matter how much I do. It matters more, that I am doing anything. Because I look at how little I have done and I feel bad, guilty almost, that I haven’t been doing as much as I maybe would have liked.

But in the last few days I have filled 4 pages with doodles, and it’s kind of motivated me again. So, I thought I would post some of the bits and pieces from previous pages of my sketchbook and try and push myself on further.

Anything Better Than Nothing

January 19, 2017 ~ Sue ~ Leave a comment

Whilst I have had a bit of a breakthrough, so far in 2017, with my writing, I am still a bit stuck with my more arty things.

I am trying to do wee things to help motivate me. Cause past doing wee doodles every now and then, I struggle. But, when I think about it,wee doodles are better than nothing.

The image above is what happened creatively today. I stuck stickers in my sketchbook. Like a child. Honestly, it was so relaxing, just what I needed after a stressful day. So, as far as I am concerned it did it’s job.

Been doing a lot of thinking, so I can build on the wee doodles and stickers, and actually create something substantial. Maybe, I need a few goals. Like making a new banner or something. Goals sometimes help, sometimes they do de-motivate me further though.