There are a lot of aspects of my life that I need to pay more attention to. Especially at the moment, as I feel stuck in place. However, I do feel like I am my worst critic, and just give myself a whole pile of issues which I find hard to prioritise. I mean, I need to sort out my diet, lose weight, sleep better, do more drawing, clear out my room, buy new furniture, look for better paying job, buy a car, get my own place… The list of things I want to do is endless. Which makes it hard to find something to focus on, as there is just so much, it seems overwhelming. Like, what do you focus on?
Maybe, I need to think about things a little bit less as a list of things, and find a more realistic thing to tackle. So, the thing I think I would like to pay more attention to is my own mindset. The problem I have is that I look at stuff, like the list of ‘aims’ noted above, and I can’t focus on one, I just feel defeated before I can do anything. So, that is what I need to work on. Learn to look at my aims more individually, so that they are more achievable. I need to get more a ‘can do’ attitude, rather than a ‘can’t do’ attitude.
I have been looking into things on the internet, and there is an aspect of ADHD called ‘task paralysis’, it is when a person can’t complete a task as they don’t deem conditions perfect. I find that reading through articles explaining it in more detail, and it does make sense to me. I know I just struggle to see the worthiness of doing things, sometimes. Like, why bother if the most likely outcome is that I am going to fail. It’s like I am facing an avalanche, and I can’t even run away, despite my mind screaming to escape. So, I am going to try and work on that, as it has a really big impact on my life.
I end up being left sitting, not moving, nothing ever changing.
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I wish you success in working on this Sue! I can relate to your struggle!